Reality or Tv?

*Sing-a-long* "In a 90's kinda world, I'm glad I got my girls, keep ya head up...." remixed by "You are one step closer to becoming America's Next Top Model(and you are the one still standing there with the trembling lip)." I actually enjoy ANTM though...the pharisee in me :0). Notice the contrast. One phrase speaks of sisterhood, the positive vibes radiate like your babygirl's smile on Christmas morning....you can hear "we are family, I got all my sistas wit me" beating down your ear drum and you feel like backyard bbq's before the uncle get's too drunk. The other phrase, feels more like pouring rain with no umbrella and boyfriend running in the opposite direction....your heel breaks-it's the perfect accessory to match your heart. I try not to use profanity in my daily language because I understand some people have a heightened sensitivity to it but words are words so I ask, what the FUCK has happened to television?! I feel better now. TV makes me wanna cuss and listen to T.I. day and night while drinking Moet, perfectly perched on the ledge of my project window. If reality tv were designed to sell life to the immortal, the entire marketing department would be fired....no one in their right mind would buy this product. Sex, drama, lies, and murder have always been headliners in entertainment however, we've gotten more and more imbalanced with our incorporation of such themes into everyday life. It is UN-health-y to be lied to, scandulously sexed, snapped off on, and domestically violated everyday, unless of course you reside on cellblock 8, then carry on. The rest of us actually lead pretty simplistic lives where we meet up with the co-workers for eight hours and head back home to cuddle up with the family....kind of like how things went on the Cosby show, or even like the Jeffersons. Naturally, every day isn't as easy as 1,2,3 but neither is it a-squared + b-squared = c-squared. If it's not the "go home please" shows it's the "lose belly fat" or "grow 3 inches overnight" commercials in between and it all just makes me feel like life is a sugar-free chocolate cake....edible but it sucks to have to eat it. I just want to see something regular. Something that reminds me of my aunt with her long list of failed marriages but decision to adopt 3 kids she didn't carry. Where is the balance? Where are the valuables? Much of what we are exposed to through television is the garbage of humanity and this breeds a certain amount of anger and resentment within me from feeling so misrepresented. So I'm weird like snow in hawaii as I sit staring at the black on my tv realizing I never know where my remote is because I never use it. I fill my silence with sounds of music that tell of struggle and triumph, and sometimes just struggle though. I pleasure my eyes with black words on vanilla colored pages, I write, I laugh at myself, I pray, I sing, and my favorite, I look at pictures. All these things make me feel alive and relatable. Just like Martin did when he fronted on Gina but confessed to Tommy how much of a mistake he'd made-even Roscoe who began his career as a professional beggar at a young age. Or maybe like Red Foxx did when he indirectly announced boundless love for his deceased wife in his claim to be "coming up to see you honey"-almost every episode. I miss reality, it has completely abandoned the tv.